Super-Baby's with E

sent from Vineyard (our church)

Since the last time I blogged (the events of less than one month):

• Thurs, Jan. 24 - While at ER, found out Super-Baby had died. He was measuring 6+ weeks. I'd been pregnant 12+ weeks.
• Mon, Jan. 28 - Labor and miscarriage while at friend's house. Ambulance ride to ER. Night in hospital.
• Tues, Jan. 29 - D&C. Two more nights in hospital.
• Thurs, Jan. 31 - Home from hospital.
• Mon, Feb. 4 - D and I held Super-Baby's body for the first and last time.
• Feb. 7-14 - Lyme relapse. Worst one yet.
• Thurs-Sun, Feb. 7-9 - Three nights in a hotel. Named Super-Baby. Got talking seriously about adoption.
• Tues, Feb. 12 - Midwife follow-up. I'm fine.
  
• Fri, Feb. 15 - Took J's body to funeral home for cremation and chose an urn. First visit to counselor. Got major huge prayer cover this night. Physically, noticeably less-bad this day.
• NOW. Sat, Feb. 16 - Trying to get me into a 2-week all-day counseling program. Should be able to pick up Super-Baby's ashes next weekend. Getting second strand added to my "E bracelet." Many doc visits and an MRI scheduled (all Lyme related).
• Detail: Add 1-3 times daily me going into shock and/or anxiety attacks from Jan. 24 - about Feb. 4. Currently down to a few times a week. Been very out of my head through this time period, and still feeling out of touch with reality most of the day. I do seem to be able to type/write with some clarity.
  

Super-Baby is now J Z. He'll go by J.